Earlier this year I was at Lava Hot Springs with a bunch of friends. Aaron, myself and three others were headed to the hot springs. Two of my friends in the back seats were talking about house payments and retirement. I was listening and it hit me how different their stories are from me.
There is no way that we can achieve those dreams on the path I'm currently on. I work in a dead-end job. While I was in the car, it hit me that I have the job of an eighteen year old. I'm thirty-three now! It was then I had an epiphany: I needed to return to college and get my degree. As soon as I had that conclusion, it felt right.
But the thought occurred to me, a degree doesn't get you that much. How many of you, your friends, or family have degrees but do nothing with them? I want a much better job because I get a degree. It wasn't long after that thought that my mind latched onto becoming a teacher. It's true that teachers in general (and Utahn teachers in specific) don't make very much. But I assure you, they make much more than I currently do.
So I began the steps towards getting back to school. I'm a procrastinator and move very slow when doing new things. When I have frustrating days at (retail) work, it spurs me to come home and complete the next step. So yesterday I got my application for student aid completed. I have my transcripts. Soon I will be enrolled in SLCC. I hope to get some classes fixed and anything else I need done before transferring to the U.
I think to myself, you know if you started this when you first moved to Salt Lake, you'd be a teacher by now and well on your way to achieving your dreams. But no matter, I am on the path right now.
I used to think that the mistakes I made at BYU couldn't be rectified. I fell into yet another rut. It feels *very* good to be moving forward again.